September 24, 2022
I read the transcript for the last lecture of Randy Pausch and watched a video clip of him giving it. It was interesting and enlightening. I loved that he talked about his childhood dreams. Not all of them were realized completely and some were not realized in the way he may have envisioned but he did acheive them. I loved that they were things that he had thought about since his youth and didn't just cast them aside as childish pursuits or as unattainable. I think that that was one of the keys to his success. If you have a dream and you dont spend time thinking about it, mapping it out, imagining it actually happending and desiring to have it, then it's a fleeting dream that has very little chance of happening. I do think that it is important to have dreams! I even believe that it's important to have big, imaginative and unrealistic dreams. Dreams help us to think that impossible things are possible and that we can do anything! They can help us have confidence in ourselves and just thinking about them makes us happy for a time. But, for a dream to actually take shape, you'll have to do more than just thinking, it'll take work. One thing that I used to love as a child was to play 'office' with my siblings. We would set up cubicles and round up spare telephones, pencils and pads of paper and other office supplies. We spent time as car salesmen, realtors, and a list of other business professionals. I loved this game! I wanted to grow up to run an office. I also daydreamed about building a store on our property with some old lumber that we had. I daydreamed that people would come from miles around (we lived on an acreage 8 miles outside of a small town) to buy 'The Worlds Finest Chocolate easter bunnies' (the product for our local school fundraiser) from my quaint little store. This dream was of course a little silly but to me it was exciting and it seemed plausible. Who knew that when I grew up thinking through business ideas and plans and researching whether or not they would work or be financially sound ideas would be one of my very most favorite hobbies! Ideas and business consume my thoughts and spare time. Others around me don't seem to have the same rush at a fresh business idea. I tend to think that there must be some reason that I lean toward this activity and I hope that I can turn my dreams into realities as I push forward with my studies and goals!
November 5, 2022 This week was a hard one! I had a few hiccups with my little business and it made me feel terrible. I simultaneously felt a certain peace but my self esteem took a blow. I have read about mastery, perseverance, grit, the value of failure and a bunch of other concepts that make sense. They motivate me. And then real life hits and I flounder a bit while I try to find out how to apply it all. I feel like giving up on my degree and education as I ask myself, 'what's the point?'. I feel like giving in to feelings of depression and failure. Then, after a little pity party, I dust myself off and decide to try again. I see that I tend to be able to face life a little better in the mornings as opposed to at the end of a long day of parenting, cooking, cleaning, studying, thinking and just doing more than seems like can fit into the day. I try not to make any lasting decisions at night! I liked my studies this week in that I felt encouraged to remember that with the...
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