October 1, 2022
This week I was able to spend more time pondering. I was reading in the book, Launching Leaders, and I loved the advice to spend time in your 'Holy Place' meditating or pondering. For me, my holy place is going for a walk outdoors with only me and my thoughts. I spend most of this time thinking of what I want to do and be in life. This often leads to a business or humanitarian idea. I like to think through them until I come to a possible problem and then try to find ways to solve the problems. This week I was thinking about my idea for an NGO. It is centered on supporting different humanitarian causes. I had the thought that when it someday becomes a reality that I could partner with HXP (a humanitarian organization that organizes humanitarian trips for teenagers) to accomplish projects that we support. I also thought about going to the local mission president to set up local mission wide service projects in third world areas. It was very exciting to me and it makes me motivated to work hard towards my degree so that I can move forward with my goals.
Another thing that consumed my thoughts this week was that of finding and approaching mentors that will be able to help me learn and move toward my goals. I was thinking of people that I know that I might like to approach as mentors. I thought of Kim Spiers at Valley House. She is hard working! She has deep religious beliefs and she is making a difference in our community. She does the fundraising for the homeless shelter which interests me considerably. I do think that because she is so hard working that she might not have the time to mentor me.
I also thought of Gretchen Bietz because of her fundraising expertise. The draw backs might be crossing a boundary with her being my landlord and that she lives far away.
All in all, I had a great time thinking! It provided me motivation in my studies and it brought hours of excitement in possibilities! And then the first talk in general conference was all about humanitarian service toward others!!! A great week!
November 5, 2022 This week was a hard one! I had a few hiccups with my little business and it made me feel terrible. I simultaneously felt a certain peace but my self esteem took a blow. I have read about mastery, perseverance, grit, the value of failure and a bunch of other concepts that make sense. They motivate me. And then real life hits and I flounder a bit while I try to find out how to apply it all. I feel like giving up on my degree and education as I ask myself, 'what's the point?'. I feel like giving in to feelings of depression and failure. Then, after a little pity party, I dust myself off and decide to try again. I see that I tend to be able to face life a little better in the mornings as opposed to at the end of a long day of parenting, cooking, cleaning, studying, thinking and just doing more than seems like can fit into the day. I try not to make any lasting decisions at night! I liked my studies this week in that I felt encouraged to remember that with the...
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